The curse

I turned 50 and almost exactly at the same time my periods stopped. What are the chances of this happening right on the dot? I don't know but it felt weird and creepy.  It's like my body has decided, lets not muck about here you are 50, time to accept that you are old. Bam!

Considering that my menstruation was always regular like clockwork...it sort of came as a shock. And this is where the funny part starts.

I thought, hold on, am I not meant to have some sort of menopausal symptoms prior to your period stopping? Hot flushes, hormonal imbalances, pain, being cranky....all the misery that other women talk about. My friends talk about.

I pondered for a few days on that topic exactly.
I went back in my mind searching for symptoms of dreaded menopause in the past few years...months maybe.
OMG...
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wait...
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O.M.G

Waking up in the middle of the night being super hot and then being cold and putting the covers back on. Hot flushes? Standing in the shopping centre buying clothes and thinking, seriously they should adjust the air con it's like super hot in here my hair is sweating from roots up..and then forgetting about it a couple of minutes later. Hot flushes? Waking up in the night every few months with stupid painful period pain and shovelling painkiller in my mouth and then walking around for an hour until pain stops. Pain? Planning to divorce my husband because he did not take the garbage out again! Grumps? Feeling low and old and tired and cranky...then feeling ok again. Hormonal imbalance?

O.M.G

I think I am going through menopause and I didn't notice!
Too busy to notice.
I am used to feeling off and miserable and just getting on with it.
Yep, that's me.

Anyway, I have purchased about 10 books on menopause from an online bookstore and am starting to read those. I might as well pay more attention to what is happening to my body and mind.
Will post the titles later.